This is hard

I couldn’t come up with a better title. This is hard. I have friends and family suffering from loss, illness, cancer, grief. Greg and Robyn’s son just passed away.  Aymie’s cancer is back. Jen’s dad is very ill and her brother in law has cancer. Add that to my own grief and we have a perfect storm.

Mom is moving into a new house. While I understand why, saying goodbye to the walls that hold all the memories of dad is hard. While I usually deal well with change, this is something that I am finding very difficult. I know that I will carry those memories with me but it’s still hard.

Except to sleep, I haven’t stopped crying since yesterday. Yesterday it was racking sobs. Now it’s just tears rolling down my face. As much as I feel like life has stalled, it’s clear that it keeps going.

Daimion had his first birthday without dad. That was a hard day for me too. I don’t know what else to say.

I’m tired and sad and worn out.